Its been quite sometime since I last posted. There's been a lot happening in recent months, such as my mother leaving our family to go with another man back in August.... Exactly one week before my Dad's birthday. I'm not going to go into full detail about the ordeal just out of respect for my dad and our family privacy, but I will say that I am angry. It has been a brutal trial to go through considering I had to see all the melt-downs and act of self destruction. I feel like the family has actually gotten to an OK place, but many things are still unresolved.
Secondly, I was dating this guy for about 5 months. He's not your typical Mr. Perfect but he was a diamond in the rough. He had lots of baggage but the way he made me feel was worth it. Unfortunately he and I couldn't seem to find a happy medium with our arguments. They were constant and not far enough in between. Our break up has been less than easy. He had relapsed on a drug he is addicted to (and hadn't used while we were together), and attempted to hang himself. That essentially landed him back into prison. Some people say that will make the break-up easier on me...It really doesn't. We haven't really had closure and the only way to communicate is through letters. Its hard trying to move past someone when you blame yourself and think of things you could've done differently. Its especially hard when you still love someone and they're sent to prison. Its been hard for me to move past.
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